The Adventures of the Twin Princesses

Every mother (or parent) has to make the most crucial decision: whether to go back to work or stay at home. For me, it was a very difficult decision, one that was discussed until our faces turned blue. I went back to work. 

We knew financially it was the right decision for right now. I was, however, able to cut my hours back to 4 days a week and still be considered full time. Its a compromise any working mother could enjoy. Even though I now have 3 days a week with my girls, there are plenty of moments in their young lives I will never be able to experience.

These are the sacrificies you have to make in order to bring home a paycheck.

Every parent looks forward to their childrens first words, first roll over, first time they took a step. A working parent can only hope that a video camera is at least close by because a baby sitter or a grandparent may be the one to share the accomplished milestone with you. I had to experience such a situation.

Olivia rolled over for the first time. I missed it. 

I was a little sad that I didnt get to see it. The "first" roll will never happen again. The more I thought about it, the more I felt better about it. I may not have seen the "first" but when I do finally get to witness Olivia and her big accomplishment, it will be the "first" to me. I will still get to see her excitment that she was able to do it again. I can only hope that I'll get to experience with her, the many other "firsts" that will come in the future. 

I made the decision to go back to work. This was a choice. We all have to make tough decisions that effect our families for the better. Its just a sacrifice that we needed to make.

For as long as I can remember I have always wanted to be a mother. While I thoroughly enjoyed my 20's, there was still a small part of me that was jealous of many of my friends who had already begun their families. I knew eventually I would get a chance, but I secretly hoped it would happen soon.

It's funny how, growing up, you just assumed it was a simple part of life. You grow up, you get married, you have children, you have grandchildren, etc. It was always instilled in your brains that you could get pregnant at any given chance in your life, so take precaution. However, as time past on, I slowly came to realize, life isn't so simple as we originally believed.

I thought for sure I had my lifed planned out when I was 18. I had a set plan and I was determined to follow it. Ha, what does a college kid know anyway. As the years began  to pass, I knew that plan was out the door. Can you imagine, me, done having children by the time i was 25? As I approached my 30's, I was finally getting married. Maybe later than I wanted but that's ok, life always throws curveballs. I will just have children right a way.

Happy one year anniversay to us! No children. There's that life leason I learned about things not being simple. We made the decision that millions of couples around the world have to make, to seek professional help. We weren't given many options so the one option we did get, we hoped and prayed it would succeed.

This time last year, we were begining our journey to parenthood. It was a long, emotional process. It took a toll on my body and my emotions. We hoped that those two tiny embryos that were transfered into my body would become the absolute highlight of my every day. I knew I would have been blessed to be able to raise one child in this world. Now we are truly blessed knowing I am now the proud mother and role model for 2 wonderful girls. They are my everything.

If you would have asked me 10 years ago, how would I feel about having twins? I'd probably laugh in your face as I didn't think it was possible. While twins run in my family, I though for sure it was the wrong generation. Now, I couldn't even imagine my life without my girls. I wouldn't want it any other way.

My family of 2 (and a cat lol) quickly became a family of 4 in less than a year. We are ever so grateful for the wonderful doctors and nurses that helped along the way. Our journey could not have succeeded without them. I look forward to finding out where this journey will  take us.

<3 CNM